I don’t even know why I’m even doing this. I currently am not a fan of boys right now. Life is so much more pleasantly calm without them. I don’t need to be another casualty in some guy’s path of self-discovery or become roadkill in his effort to fill some internal emptiness that he can’t fill on his own. So why the fuck am I doing this? Because I’m sick of doing things the hard way by working through my own shit before putting it upon anyone else. Right now, it’s all about being selfish and not giving a fuck about anyone else. It’s whatever is going to make me…

Some of these choices I have to make are forcing me to make some tough decisions…a hard thing for an indecisive Libra. Having to create these hard lines in the sand with the end goal of drawing out the perfect mate is really taxing me. Anyway, back to the questionnaire. I need to be honest. This is a process of getting exactly what I want as opposed to settling for what’s around me. Yeah, honestly…I don’t want a smoker. I do want someone with a certain level of education. I want someone who makes a certain amount of money…not so they can spend it on me, but so I don’t…

How will rating myself match me with anyone?   “I do things according to plan.” “I feel unable to deal with things” “I often carry the conversation to a higher level” “I usually wait for others to lead the way” “I get angry easily” I can be described on either end of the spectrum on any given day. I can be on both ends of the spectrum on any same day. So, what am I supposed to do? Mark myself as “somewhat” for all of them. Does that mean the person I get will be as middle of the road as me? Is that what I want? Who’s to say…

Day 6: Same, same….different day!I do get a call from the “quip” guy and we set up a coffee for later in the week, finally this process is moving somewhere.Otherwise, I get a response from an ex-boyfriend wishing me luck, another good friend offering a reference and two other gentlemen that I already know as distant acquaintances.I’m beginning to realize what a very small town Portland is.It is refreshing, though, to see that it is mostly normal, lonely people looking for the same thing…..some sort of deeper connection,that use Craig’s List as a resource. Day 7: I join about 800 other crazy people in downtown Portland to run the Urban…

Day 3: I’m no longer tied to Craig’s List as my confidence builder, which is a good thing since men obviously have such short attention spans they can’t look past the first page of ads.You guessed it, no new responses!Luckily I get busy with work and don’t have time to be on email for the rest of the day. Day 4: The staleness has set in…I do get one humorous response and since he must have had to look through 3 pages to get to my ad, I reward him for his perserverance with a reply.We exchange a few quips and then phone numbers, things are looking up…there may actually…